This is really creepy but I actually

sort of searched Facebook for Sebastian's account. Yeah this is creepy. same goes to posting it on confessions, isn't it? (But I didn't do it, don't know why). It's strange, I couldn't find him at all. Is he even real? Does he even exist? Yeah, I know, he may be just really private about these social media things or simply does not use Facebook often. But seriously, not even a photo of him could be found on the exchange group. Went to school today, didn't see him. Guess he's probably back in Amsterdam or travelling somewhere. Just hate myself for not using 30 seconds to ask for his contacts when I met him the last time. Didn't know it would be the last. :(

They say, God's timing is always perfect and everyone plays a part in your life. Though I couldn't befriend Sebastian, knowing him actually let me know that I could actually study and/or work in Netherlands where English is mainly spoken. Perhaps God is just using Sebastian for that purpose?

Well, I don't know. It seems like a form of self-consolation. But there's no point engaging in a series of lamentation. Let live and be lived. A little regret in my life; if only he would post on the confessions and look for me... but ha! Who am I kidding.