Looking at my recent blog posts, sometimes I feel that

I seem a little obsessed with the Dutch guy. I don't know why I am so, especially when I have only met him four times-- in January, February, March, and April. It's May and I hope that I could see him once more. I'm thankful for my buddy who is always suffering my craps and craziness toward the Dutch guy and even asks me to brave myself up and talk to him. But I don't want to burden her with too much of my craziness for the Dutch so I guess the best outlet is here. I hope he doesn't find me rude the last time when we met, we said Hi and I just ran off. I was rushing to print my FYP which was going to be due in like a little while and I only managed to submit it just in time (Although I heard that people who were 15 minutes late after the submission time managed to submit as well, it's better not to risk it huh?). Thinking back, I guess having me asking if he wanna have coffee someday or whatsoever wouldn't hurt or delay my submission, but at that time of panic, all in my head were printing and submitting my FYP. :( :( :( I'm going to the school library to study on Monday, so hope I get to see him and share a table with him again.

If not, goodbye, Sebastian. I hope I see you again in Netherlands.

Planned to finish reading all the slides for COM258 on Friday

so that I could start working on the questions over the weekends and Monday. Yet, it's already 4.47 am on a Saturday and I'm no way half done with the slides. Probably gonna sleep an hour and continue with it because I can't absorb anymore. Hopefully, I'll be awake an hour later. Sometimes I think I sleep too much. Plan to go to school to study and print out my "summary" of the slides, but if I'm yet to finish, I have nothing to print, isn't it? I hope school isn't going to be crowded or noisy. And maybe... I could see him in the library again.

Just finished reading the slides of a chapter for my COM258 exam...

... Studying for my last two exams in my university life evokes a feeling of ambivalence. Perhaps, "bittersweet" might be a more romantic term to use. "Bitter" because everything is coming to an end, and "sweet" because everything is, likewise, coming to an end. Frankly, I really enjoy university life and if I could re-live it again, I would lived it better. Sad to say, I know many things and know that I could do many things (exchanges, internship, etc) a tad too late. Nevertheless, I'm glad for all the things that I've learnt, the classes I have attended, and the people (be it friends, professors, strangers, etc) that I have met. And these are the reasons why it's "bitter". But, as my FYP professor has told me, an end is the beginning of something "new". Something positive, I hope. I guess parts and parcels are mandatory in life and "this too shall pass" suggests that bad and good things will eventually come to a full stop. For this semester, I wished I could befriend Sebastian, or whatever his name should be spelt in Dutch. A poem has been running in my head the past few days, about my missed opportunities with Sebastian. I shall write it down, when the thoughts become more coherent in my head and I am able to string them into words. I know there are still a few more days to the end of the semester, which suggests a tiny possibility of me meeting him again, but what are the possibility? Well, to quote a song of The Beatles, "Let it be".

I will end this post with a poem I found online:

Source: http://s-undayevenings.tumblr.com/post/49521775396

I'm sorry, my friend.

So, I'm taking this 4 units module this semester; it has already been changed to 3 units this semester but because my friend and I are seniors and need that missing units to file for a minor, we were able to register for the module as 4 units; we just have to do an additional assignment.

Today, stupidly, I went up to the Prof and asked him about the assignment. It turned out that my Prof actually forgot about it and my question reminded him! Not only I have to do that extra assignment, but a friend of mine as well.

I'm so sorry, my friend!

Although he said it's okay, but I can't help feeling bad about it.

Sigh. Sometimes, remaining silent is the best policy.

What a University/College Student needs to know

Look what I found, A THESIS GENERATOR!!!

http://corptrain.phoenix.edu/thesis_generator/thesis_generator.html

The Thesis Generator helps you to come up with a thesis statement for an essay. It is very easy to use: simply answer a few questions about your essay ideas and the generator will come up with three possible thesis statements.

While the generated thesis statements may not be perfect in terms of sentence structure or grammar, it is nevertheless a wonderful tool, especially for university/college students who have to write argumentative essays for their coursework most of the time.

Writing is not an easy process, but starting to write is even harder. Your ideas may be all over the place; if they're not, you might also find it hard to start or probably overwhelmed by the blankness of the blank screen on your word processor. At least the thesis statements generated by this thesis generator can act as a head start for you to start writing your essay and develop your ideas.

Wonderful tool! Thanks to the inventor!!!

Oh, and what's more wonderful about it is that IT'S FREE!!! :D :D :D :D :D

Writing in the Night

I love writing and doing my assignment at night because of the cool breeze and the silence. Silence, hopefully it persists. Please, God.

I seem to be sleepwalking this semester and a heavy weight is weighing on me. To make it worse, Fortune chose to turn its wheel at this crucial period, and invited to my home the undeniable, nonsensical pests. Please God, please get them to move out soon.

I know I am asking for too much, but I really hope to get into the Dean's List this semester. There aren't much chances.

Deutscher Test

Heute habe ich einen Deutschen Test gemacht. Es war sehr schwierig. Es war viele sehr schwierige Worte. Ich hoffe, dass ich nicht den Test schlecht gemacht habe. Ich weiß nicht, ob meine GPA noch gut sein kann. Wenn ich denke an meine GPA, bin ich sehr traurig. Schade. Vielleicht bin ich nicht intelligent? Vielleicht kann ich nur als durchschnittlicher Mensch sein? Vielleicht, vielleicht, vielleicht...

Auch habe ich ein Skript für einen Wettbewerb abgeben. Hoffentlich kann ich einen Film zu machen.

Ich bin noch traurig, wenn ich über dem Test andenke. Hoffentlich kann ich überhaupt einen A- haben...

Schade. Ich denke, auch wenn T.O.P oder Big Bang erscheint vor mir, werde ich nicht glücklich sein.

Alle werde vorbei.