Looking at my recent blog posts, sometimes I feel that

I seem a little obsessed with the Dutch guy. I don't know why I am so, especially when I have only met him four times-- in January, February, March, and April. It's May and I hope that I could see him once more. I'm thankful for my buddy who is always suffering my craps and craziness toward the Dutch guy and even asks me to brave myself up and talk to him. But I don't want to burden her with too much of my craziness for the Dutch so I guess the best outlet is here. I hope he doesn't find me rude the last time when we met, we said Hi and I just ran off. I was rushing to print my FYP which was going to be due in like a little while and I only managed to submit it just in time (Although I heard that people who were 15 minutes late after the submission time managed to submit as well, it's better not to risk it huh?). Thinking back, I guess having me asking if he wanna have coffee someday or whatsoever wouldn't hurt or delay my submission, but at that time of panic, all in my head were printing and submitting my FYP. :( :( :( I'm going to the school library to study on Monday, so hope I get to see him and share a table with him again.

If not, goodbye, Sebastian. I hope I see you again in Netherlands.

Planned to finish reading all the slides for COM258 on Friday

so that I could start working on the questions over the weekends and Monday. Yet, it's already 4.47 am on a Saturday and I'm no way half done with the slides. Probably gonna sleep an hour and continue with it because I can't absorb anymore. Hopefully, I'll be awake an hour later. Sometimes I think I sleep too much. Plan to go to school to study and print out my "summary" of the slides, but if I'm yet to finish, I have nothing to print, isn't it? I hope school isn't going to be crowded or noisy. And maybe... I could see him in the library again.

Just finished reading the slides of a chapter for my COM258 exam...

... Studying for my last two exams in my university life evokes a feeling of ambivalence. Perhaps, "bittersweet" might be a more romantic term to use. "Bitter" because everything is coming to an end, and "sweet" because everything is, likewise, coming to an end. Frankly, I really enjoy university life and if I could re-live it again, I would lived it better. Sad to say, I know many things and know that I could do many things (exchanges, internship, etc) a tad too late. Nevertheless, I'm glad for all the things that I've learnt, the classes I have attended, and the people (be it friends, professors, strangers, etc) that I have met. And these are the reasons why it's "bitter". But, as my FYP professor has told me, an end is the beginning of something "new". Something positive, I hope. I guess parts and parcels are mandatory in life and "this too shall pass" suggests that bad and good things will eventually come to a full stop. For this semester, I wished I could befriend Sebastian, or whatever his name should be spelt in Dutch. A poem has been running in my head the past few days, about my missed opportunities with Sebastian. I shall write it down, when the thoughts become more coherent in my head and I am able to string them into words. I know there are still a few more days to the end of the semester, which suggests a tiny possibility of me meeting him again, but what are the possibility? Well, to quote a song of The Beatles, "Let it be".

I will end this post with a poem I found online:

Source: http://s-undayevenings.tumblr.com/post/49521775396

I'm more productive in school library than at home, I don't know why. It seems I never get a lot of things done staying at home, even though I feel like I'm doing the same amount of things as when I'm in school. I don't even take breaks often at home whereas I would have coffee breaks or whatsoever in school. Sad to say, sometimes one can't have his/her cake and eat it (I don't know why he/she can't, you actually can if you buy a cake and the purpose is to eat it?! Well I digressed): The school is too far and I, perhaps, am just too lazy.

And yesterday at the school library, I actually thought I met this guy that I blogged about a while back. I'm not sure if it was him because he didn't stand out so much anymore. Still have the nice glasses, but well... I don't know. And he spoke in a language that I didn't comprehend, french maybe?

I should get back to revising and hope I could get an A- for this module. Yes, ambitious, but doesn't harm to aim high, right?

Goodbye B-, Hello A+!

Dear B-,

it has been long. Why do you have to appear again? B+, could you be my final grade for HL303? I wouldn't mind if A-, A or A+ wanna come, but really, B-, could you leave me alone? :(

Auf Wiedersehen!

Post-FYP Thoughts

So, I just uploaded a soft copy of my FYP online. Realised there are a few grammar mistakes :( Wish I'd more time to perhaps read/glance through the final printed out works. Looking at it again after two days is certainly refreshing. Felt bad about my grammar mistakes, like I could never create something perfect, and accomplish something great. Stuck in this rut, I can never get out. Guess I ain't perfect, and can't make the cut.

FYP

A bittersweet feelings toward it: I've finished it but yet I don't want it to end because it means I'll graduate soon. 

In time of adversities, you see who your true friends are. And I'm glad to say I have awesome course mates who're always ready to lend a helping hand. It was a bad rush today, editing and re-phrasing my sentences. Luckily I made it at the eleventh hour, although I didn't get to read through it for one last time, or take a picture of my two hardcopies, or to make sure everything is printed properly and clearly, Well, oh well. I'm thankful for the wonderful people I met.

And surprisingly, I met you again today.What a surprise. Wished I wasn't in a rush to go and print my FYP so I could talk to you more. Nevertheless, I'm glad you said HI, maybe you remember me, maybe you just said that because someone said "hi" to you. Hope to see you again, before you return to Netherlands! 

Wanderlust

Source: http://travel-quotes.tumblr.com/post/23477098209/you-lose-sight-of-things-and-when-you-travel-everything

I just checked my exam results and my CGPA dropped by 0.02. I haven't know how I scored for each individual subject yet but well... 0.02 may be a small number, but I think it symbolises something significant. Perhaps 0.02 means my lack of effort, interest, ability, etc. I think 4 years in a row is just too long; I need a break. I have been going through the cycle-- studying, studying studying-- and following the well-beaten path -- get into a school, exam, get into a school, exam. While I value education, I also need to catch a breathe from these hectic, information overload processes. That's why I applied for an internship in Germany. I know I may not get it, I know even if I get it I might not be able to go due to visa problems, etc, but I want to try. I want to see how everything turns out. I hope to use the chance to do something different, to re-energise myself and come back a better motivated individual. I really hope the company replies me soon. I know it's the festive season, perhaps they are celebrating, but if they really want me, I hope they would confirm everything within the first two weeks after school starts. I really want to get this internship. I want to take a different path, from everyone, and to come back a better person.

Weird ideas popping into my mind but I wonder if I've studied physiology, could I be a physiologist in FC Bayern. Haha, well, I can always fulfill this fantasy in my script and film. :D

I should snap out of this holiday mood and start preparing for my FYP now. I can do it, I can do it, I can get a plus, I can get a 4.5 GPA! Yes, yes, yes. Alles werde ich sehr schön gemacht! Ich kann!

I'm sorry, my friend.

So, I'm taking this 4 units module this semester; it has already been changed to 3 units this semester but because my friend and I are seniors and need that missing units to file for a minor, we were able to register for the module as 4 units; we just have to do an additional assignment.

Today, stupidly, I went up to the Prof and asked him about the assignment. It turned out that my Prof actually forgot about it and my question reminded him! Not only I have to do that extra assignment, but a friend of mine as well.

I'm so sorry, my friend!

Although he said it's okay, but I can't help feeling bad about it.

Sigh. Sometimes, remaining silent is the best policy.

What a University/College Student needs to know

Look what I found, A THESIS GENERATOR!!!

http://corptrain.phoenix.edu/thesis_generator/thesis_generator.html

The Thesis Generator helps you to come up with a thesis statement for an essay. It is very easy to use: simply answer a few questions about your essay ideas and the generator will come up with three possible thesis statements.

While the generated thesis statements may not be perfect in terms of sentence structure or grammar, it is nevertheless a wonderful tool, especially for university/college students who have to write argumentative essays for their coursework most of the time.

Writing is not an easy process, but starting to write is even harder. Your ideas may be all over the place; if they're not, you might also find it hard to start or probably overwhelmed by the blankness of the blank screen on your word processor. At least the thesis statements generated by this thesis generator can act as a head start for you to start writing your essay and develop your ideas.

Wonderful tool! Thanks to the inventor!!!

Oh, and what's more wonderful about it is that IT'S FREE!!! :D :D :D :D :D