Clearing the Clutter

THEY, I don't know who "they" are but They said that clearing the clutter is a way of welcoming and improving your life in the new year.

Clutter are commonly referred to in its physical form; i.e things that you don't want/need and therefore should be removed for reasons such as cleanliness and clearing up more space. These physical clutter can be refer to old clothes in the context of tidying up a wardrobe, or anything that's lying around in your house that can be seen on touched.

Yet, there are also, in the more abstract form, the emotional clutter. Emotional clutter are things, events, memories or anything that affect/upset your emotional well-being. Generally, it may be things or feelings such as remorse, guilt, sadness, that are bothering you. These feelings may arise from relationships, past events, etc. I have had emotional clutters and I chose to put them down. One example is a deteriorated friendship.

I was rather close to a friend in the university during my freshman year and this continued to our third year when things started to take a different turns and deterioration sets in. Generally, we contacted each other less and less and I tend to feel awkward in her presence, no matter if it was just us or in a group. Sometimes whatever she said or do would portrayed to me an air of condescendence and superficiality. It's as if she gets close to me because she hoped she would stand to gain (which she didn't). I'm sorry but I don't need such friend (if they could be called thus) in my life. Sometimes I feel that I could be alone, without friends. Sometimes I'm rather hangout with myself in the university than with others. Perhaps it's not others, but me. I do feel lonely and hope there's someone to hang out with, but I'd rather hang out with myself and get use to the loneliness rather than engaging in conversations which I think are superficial, boring, shallow, and whatsoever that don't benefit but instead probably corrupt me mentally. That's why I don't really care when I have my convocation. So, off she goes in 2013. Perhaps we may never converse/contact one another again.

And after putting down this emotional clutter, I feel like a new me. A fresh blank page that's capable of being painted in more beautiful colours.

Of course, there are another type of clutter, I'm not sure what to call them. They are things that we have been putting off and if get rid of the way/done would benefit us a lot. For instance, learning a new skills may help one to improve on his/her job that he/she is doing right now. But one may be putting off this sort of learning due to excuses such as lack of time. Perhaps this clutter should be named the procrastination elements.

My resolution for this year is to be reborn again, to live a new me. Life's short and it's not too late to start living.