I went to my friend's convocation yesterday,

and heard that one of my friend got a korean boyfriend because she works in a korean company. Envious. If only I could get into a german company. As convocation draws near, I recall the missed opportunities that took place during my undergraduate days...

It seems like the dream to work internationally is getting further and further away from me...

I guess my application for Zacademy falls through... Am I destined to live a life like so many other of the people I know...? There's nothing wrong with theirs, but just that they prefer to stay put where they are, whereas I'm just ready to take off any second.

So i realised the opening for Lufthansa's IAP closed just when I was going to apply...

It seems that my dream toward Germany is getting further and further to the extent that it seems impossible. Maybe I'm just fated to be a loser, willowing in self-pity and swimming in my own regrets.

Inertia probably got the hold on me...

Or perhaps it's lack of motivation or incentive.

Ich habe keine Ahnung. Approximately 3 more days to making a decision.

Eat a few months of grass and perhaps things might be better?

It's july

seems like I didn't get the Y&R job :( hope i get the lufthansa job which I will be applying in a few days.