I don't know why such weird thoughts flashed past my head just now. I hope you're fine.

 I'd the best of my days this summer, but not here. History just kept repeating itself and I have to put up with crap over and over again. This friendship is tiring and upsetting; when I tried so much to be happier and try to think positively, things will go the wrong way again. Perhaps I'm a selfish person, I always think about how I feel. But have you ever stood in my position? I'm a human and what I need from my friend is respect. I really enjoy hanging out with all the new people that I have met, and it shows me that human can actually be selfless. Es ist egal, I just have to put up with these for a few more days. Perhaps we might never meet again.

Now I know I'm lying when I don't care. Obviously I do, if not I wouldn't be feeling this way.

I don't understand why you're not replying me. If you can't make it or don't want to, say so. You shouldn't get my hope high in the first place, or expect me to expect you to reply and then nothing takes place. Just say it!