I'd the best of my days this summer, but not here. History just kept repeating itself and I have to put up with crap over and over again. This friendship is tiring and upsetting; when I tried so much to be happier and try to think positively, things will go the wrong way again. Perhaps I'm a selfish person, I always think about how I feel. But have you ever stood in my position? I'm a human and what I need from my friend is respect. I really enjoy hanging out with all the new people that I have met, and it shows me that human can actually be selfless. Es ist egal, I just have to put up with these for a few more days. Perhaps we might never meet again.

Now I know I'm lying when I don't care. Obviously I do, if not I wouldn't be feeling this way.

I don't understand why you're not replying me. If you can't make it or don't want to, say so. You shouldn't get my hope high in the first place, or expect me to expect you to reply and then nothing takes place. Just say it!

Summer 2012

This Summer is probably the best Summer I have ever have. I do not regret coming here. I've probably met the most awesome people I could ever meet, although whenever you contact me or I contact you, it kinda makes me sick. In time of adversity, you know who your true friend are. I'm kinda tired of all your self-centeredness and this summer just highlight them all, when I needed your help the most. I'm a changed person; changed to become stronger, and changed to become more decisive. I'll still treat you as a friend, but things are not as before. But, I still love this summer, and love so much the new friends and strangers I have met.

Seriously, your attitude just pisses me off again and again. I feel bad because I value this friendship and not because I'm in the wrong. I have stated clearly that we will play by the ears and see how things go. I remember I have stated clearly. Now you think that I'm planning stuff without you and causing you to miss out opportunities. Seriously, I'm tired of all these crap. You think people will be there for you, when you aren't there for them when they needed it? You have the right to be selfish (every man's for himself), but remember, karma bites back, others have the right to be selfish too.

On another note, I'm so happy that you (another different you from the above, obviously) replied! I was wrong to think that you were just being courteous! I think I'm not being biased but I'm so glad that I've met so many awesome people this summer. People who are selfless and helpful, and not just think about themselves.

Oh please, stop making it sounds as if it's all my fault and centering the world around you. It seriously sucks.

Sometimes I wonder if I'm a boring person... Why do the people around me have so much stuff to talk with everyone, even people I have known before them, and I, I'm always left somewhere and feeling that people aren't interested in talking to me.